I have a new birthday.

After a long and trying battle, today marks the first time I will step onto a path that is completely my own. I don’t know whether to celebrate or cry, I don’t know whether to be scared or excited. I don’t know what to do, but I will figure it out, and I will be happy. I already am.

Confession # 46

I am turning into Adventure Girl.

This weekend I am going whitewater rafting on the American River. This will require me to rough it, and I am not very good at roughing it. I am going to have to sleep in a sleeping bag, in a tent, on the ground! Why am I doing this you ask?

WINE TASTING…

After being tossed about in a tiny raft with 6 of my closest friends the outfitter has scheduled a wine tasting party for Saturday night.
El Dorado County is known for its Zins and I am all about Zin.

Two Truths & A Lie

I played this game with a group of friends at dinner last night.

The items I offered where:
1. I was kick out of my college sorority…
2. I have only had 6 sexual partners in my lifetime….
3. One of those partners was a woman….

I will not tell you which was the lie, but I will tell you the men in our party were very disappointed.

Confession # 45

Would I, could I with a much younger man.
Yes I would, yes I could and I DID!!!

Tonight I met a man 9 years my junior who is here on a business trip from Washington DC. The details of the encounter are rather long, and I am very tired, so long story short… This is May, if he lived here in California, I could definitely keep it up until December.

Confession # 44

I have a guilty pleasure.

Shoes. I have a ton of them. I even have 2 or 3 different pairs for the same outfit. Weather, pedicure and outing determine which I will wear.

My most prized pairs of shoes actually get to live in shoe bags in their original boxes. Boxes with the names Cole Han, Coach, Stuart Weitzman, BCBG|MAXAZRIA, even the prized Manolo Blahnik are proudly displayed in my closet. The shoes within these boxes are only brought out for the most special of occasions or most special of men.

Well the other day my housekeeper was putting away a few pairs of lesser shoes that were strewn about the house, when she noticed one of my prized shoe boxes was vibrating.

I guess I have two guilty pleasures.

Confession # 43

I Love ABBA

I am spending the day with the musical genius of this Swedish Pop Band. I read in a magazine that if you cannot make it to the gym, dancing to an entire ABBA album is about the same as 30 minutes on the treadmill.

If you don't believe ABBA can raise your heart rate, here is an earworm for you. Just don't hate me later today when you cannot get this song out of your head.

“If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try….”

When I figure out how to add the music I will, then you really will hate me

Confession # 42

I wear my heart on my sleeve, and seem to fall in love at the drop of a hat.

Today, I am in love with the guy at the wine shop. I don't know if it is because he is wicked cute or if it is because he owns a wine shop. Both of these qualities are very good.

Yesterday I fell in love with a guy on eHarmony who said he could not live without his ipod, his running shoes and a good book. I may still be in love with him.

Tonight I am going to a Giants' game, who knows whom might strike my fancy there.

Tomorrow night I am going to a wine paring dinner, that could be very promising where love is concerned.

Ahh… Spring

Confession # 41

I always have to have the last word.

It is a control thing with me I guess, but for once I gave in and let someone else have the last word. I just could not keep up with the game. It was getting too confusing and too painful. I need to move forward. I thought I had, but I found out I was just hiding from my true feelings. I was avoiding in order to stop obsessing. I was pretending in order to start living. Now I have to really start moving forward. If only I could stop crying.